Growth through struggle.

This week ,as some of you know, has been absolutely terrible. It was one of those weeks where everything went wrong, and i was hurt a lot. I won't go into detail about what happened because that's not something that needs to be put out in public. But looking back on this week i have realized it was just what i needed. Some of you may be thinking, you're crazy! But i have learned so much about myself and others this week. I've learned that i depend on people i shouldn't and tend to look past peoples flaws and love them anyways. And i've learned that the people you care about the most and think are your best friends with can hurt you. And i'm not going to lie, learning some of the lessons that i did this week were very hard to digest. I started out this week dwelling in the moment and sulking in my sadness but halfway through the week i realized i have to move on. i HAD to gain my life back. 


I feel like this week was Gods test towards me to see how much i could take. And if i would have blogged about this earlier this week it would have been all negative. I know that God does test us, and this was him( in some way that i have not figured out) testing me. He definitely tested my patience, and my trust in him overall. Looking back on this week i would not have done things differently, said anything different, because what i said and how i acted was needed to help me realize things. But i would have trusted God more and i would have gone to him instead of filling my life with stuff to keep me busy and distracted. i would have faced him and all my struggles. If i would have done  that this week could have gone a lot smoother. 

You live and learn.

I lived and learned how to live in difficulty. 

Hal.

My parents.

I love my parents.


Even though most teenagers would, i hate my parents. not me. i love mine. i'm not going to lie sometimes they annoy the crap out of me. but most of the other time, i love them.


My dad is the funny yet supportive one. he is hilarious. if you ever need a good laugh, hang out with him. because trust me, you will laugh. the way he tells stories and does things is absolutely hilarious. my dad is also very supportive. i don't think he has ever missed a concert i was in, a soccer game, or any other sport or something i am involved in. and even if i play terrible or do a terrible job he is still waiting to give me a hug afterwards and tell me how wonderful i was. it's great. i love you dad.


My mom and i are basically the same. we sometimes act the same way, and some people have even told me  that we walk the same way. she is also very funny(maybe that's why my parents love each other). my mom and i have had our rough patches, we have had fights. but in the end i always end up realizing that she was right and i should have just listened to her. but recently, or since high school, i've learned to cherish my time with her.  my mom also supports me just like dad but since she is a girl i can talk to her about my boy problems and stuff that my dad doesn't really understand i guess. my mom will listen to me, and then she gives the best advice. and i always know she is right even though i may not want to hear it. i love you mom.


that's my parents. and i know i have blogged about them before but i needed to again.

Hal.

if you really knew me.

if you really knew me you would know....

i love to laugh.

my laugh is really obnoxious.

i wear my heart on my sleeve. 

i am not from virginia.

i am chasing really hard after the lord.

i get my hopes up easily.

i tend to be let down often.

i am trying to be a leader.

i love my family.

i wish i could live in sweatpants.

i don't care what i look like.

i sleep to pass time away.

i am not boy crazy.

i am self-conscious of my feet.

i love giraffes.

i always need to vent.

i don't trust easily.

i do everything with the best of my  ability.

i don't hate anyone.

i sometimes hate my freckles.

i don't look at my self as beautiful.

i listen to music that describes my mood.

i could go without facebook.

i avoid drama at all costs.

i love listening.

i am very shy.

i have two role models in my life.

i am terrified of needles.

i am scared of ants. 

i love the color orange. 

i have many acquaintances.

i only have a few best friends.

i jam out to music at least once a day.

i am always working my butt off in school.

i get stressed easily. 

i hate disappointing people.

i tend to rush things.

i have an "excited" dance.

i don't care what people think of me.

i am always myself and nothing else.

i don't like the snow.

i wear flip-flops all year long.

i get in moods when i don't talk.

i often let things build up inside of me and then i explode.

i don't need attention.

i want to be someone's role model. 

i will be in the medical field when i am older.

if you really knew me you would there is much more to me than people think.

Hal.